Restless

It appears I am not the only one who gets restless in January. According to the aisles at Target, everyone wants to clean, organize and exercise. Resolutions abound and we are creating new lists, making new goals and resolving to be thinner, faster, cleaner...People at work seem to be getting more restless as well. More jumpers, wanderers, etc.

I don't usually make resolutions. I have read the facts on how successful New Year's Resolutions tend to be. I am aware of my shortcomings 365 days a year so I don't necessarily need a list of out of reach goals to remind me. I eat too much chocolate, drink too much coffee, am too critical some days and am anxious on a good day. Even though I don't make my own resolutions, the last few weeks I have thought about making some for others. Can  I do that? The patients who told me to "go to hell" and that they hated me....maybe they could work on more kindness? My middle schooler...maybe fewer videos of himself making trick shots? Less drama from the tween girl? I have to imagine that if my own resolutions have a small chance of success - making resolutions for others has zero chance of working.

So, no resolutions for me or others for now but I am restless. I don't know if it is the time of year, the fact that I am over 40, or I have just had too much caffeine. It could also have to do with the fact that I am reading Wild. I have a tiny inkling to pack my backpack and head for the Pacific Crest Trail. That wouldn't bode well for my family or job so I will finish the book and watch the movie instead.

I feel like something is going to happen this year though and I am kind of excited. I don't know what it will be yet. We look at land sporadically so maybe it will be moving toward building a house? Or maybe something not quite so big. Maybe I will find more of my niche with work or get another certification. Maybe I will just go to the beach and that will be enough. I don't know yet but I am going to try to be open to whatever the year has in store for me. Happy New Year.